currents of love, brazilian pineapple, sex, and hula hooping

just finished my 5+ hour manifestation meeting!!!! LAAFS!!!! incredible night! we got deep with our missions! i feel like changing the world Oprah style! today was POWERFUL! the manifestation blog from yesterday i originally sent out as an email to friends and had so many super positive responses… the message hit a core with people… inspired them to do things they would normally not do… think of things in new ways… reconnect with their spiritual essence. what’s even more amazing is that several people moved by the message passed it on to their loved ones who in turn responded with enthusiasm, inspiration, and love!!!! and it hit me that by me making the choice to put this positivity out into the world i was a catalyst of love… and by those who were inspired choosing to pass on the knowledge and inspiration they are catalysts and so on and so on and we all can be a part of this current of love… receiving and giving and receiving and giving! it’s fucking beautiful!!!!! made my day!……then as i was eating some brazilian pineapple that the rock band (that’s recording in Dre’s studio) left over here, i was missing my brazilian man… and he called me and we had a conversation that rocked my world… he was dropping spiritual knowledge/understanding/compassion on me gandhi style, opening up in ways that shocked me… a layer was peeled.. and it showed me the infinite possibilities and perspectives in love relationships… and i wonder what brought this energetic shift and powerful realization, what was making him hold me in this higher reverence? i guess sometimes people have to be away from you to truly appreciate you and understand you in profound ways…i mean how many people truly understand us?  or was he feeling my experiences and thoughts and feelings here and somehow tapped into that energetically? fascinating! i couldn’t get off the phone with him (though i was running late in cooking dinner and my beans did suffer- they have to sit for at least an hour for ultimate sabor)…i’m excited to keep growing and learning in love! i feel like i’m meant to teach others of love though i may not get to everyone in this lifetime. and speaking of love… though we did speak of our INCREDIBLE accomplishments of our group and our focus for 2010…we got on the subject of sex…. as should be expected with these sexy goddesses!  i love how candid some of the group is… i mean nothing is off-limits and i adore it… the questions came up – if a man is more endowed is he typically less talented or motivated with going down on a woman? (cause he feels he doesn’t have to work to please a woman)… and does size really matter?… also, isn’t a man who is uncircumcised more sensitive in feeling? … the answers were great! i wish we had video taped this conversation… real sex would’ve blushed… what a bizarre magnificent day… full of currents of love, break throughs, good food, deep conversation… i love life! we all have had those moments in life where we feel like hell but we truly create our lives… i’m living proof of that… i’ve developed consciously the beauty that is my life. now i must rest. i have a hula hooping video audition tomorrow! so random! i love life! wishing you the ultimate creation of beauty in your life!!!!

(untouched) photo by megan finley, styled by michele chantel, makeup/hair by tawney bevacqua, art by julia rauda

reflection on bringing M.U.S.I.C. into the world!

Reflecting back on the album release show I feel truly elated! It was one of the best nights of my life… It exceeded my expectations of what the show would be… The room was filled with so much love. It was like I was getting married! Seriously, my cheeks hurt from smiling! The band sounded incredible- we had only had 2 rehearsal and I had only run through the set with them twice on the day before the show. As my girl Aneesah says, “it wasn’t perfect but it was real.” And not only was it authentic- the performance was elevated- I felt fully committed to everything on stage. I even verbalized my intention to the audience, that I was going to give them love and inspiration… And they gave that beautiful energy in return. This was my first “real” show with songs I’ve created (with Dre) and my first time really leading a band. And I felt so at home… Having my NC girls and my mom there made the night even more special- their energy, their (loud) voices , enthusiasm and their dance moves definitely helped to ground me… And I absolutely adore the guys in the band (you can read more about each one of them in the interview blogs.) … they are like family- the connection is deep… And as my friend Quetzal says, “you can’t pay people to care” and they care deeply…I’m ready to go on tour with all of them! What also meant so much is that  people I admire so much musically said that they loved my voice live even more than on the album (which they thought was great as well)! What an honor! After the crowd started dying down, my girl Oshana bought a bottle of champagne and we got down on the dance floor! I really can’t find words to express this night… Thinking of all I went through to get this point…. the fear and doubts I had to overcome, the many many sacrifices, staying focused, staying positive, staying strong, staying motivated, enjoying the process of creation and recording, avoiding the disbelievers and the plastics,  and learning to believe in myself… It was such a incredible journey in which I encountered my darkness and my light. I grew so much from bringing the album officially into the world- it was a dream come true…. I’m so so grateful! I’m so excited for what’s to come!

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