INFOtainment at it’s finest… BADUUUUU will move u…

of the 4xs i’ve seen ms. erykah badu- this was the finest performance yet! i’m so INSPIRED!!!! she sings truth. she is powerful. loving. authentic. silly. a genuine artist. she provided INFOtainment at it’s finest! and her style…tonight she wore giant gold wing earrings, yellow frumpy sweatpants with a t-shirt, warrior bracelets, and a top hat which she took off to reveal blond massive hair. she was stunning. she is elegant and crass. genius yet colloquial. powerful and grounded. a goddess yet one of the common folk. i adore her. i feel so fortunate my soul sister  of song, aneesah williams, hooked up section a, 8th row seats! incredible! we experienced completely, erykah’s depth and beautiful essence. she did every song i wanted hear from baduism on. her band was TIGHT. she inspired me to really take control, bring the band down, and let my voice and lyrics be heard as they are meant to be heard. she creates this magnificent space for the message to reach ur core without u realizing it reached u. ooooh and she was my muse for a new song as well! she closed with a rendition of “Believe” from the wiz -mmm and i’m feeling her message-i believe that me headlining @ the greek isn’t so far away

currents of love, brazilian pineapple, sex, and hula hooping

just finished my 5+ hour manifestation meeting!!!! LAAFS!!!! incredible night! we got deep with our missions! i feel like changing the world Oprah style! today was POWERFUL! the manifestation blog from yesterday i originally sent out as an email to friends and had so many super positive responses… the message hit a core with people… inspired them to do things they would normally not do… think of things in new ways… reconnect with their spiritual essence. what’s even more amazing is that several people moved by the message passed it on to their loved ones who in turn responded with enthusiasm, inspiration, and love!!!! and it hit me that by me making the choice to put this positivity out into the world i was a catalyst of love… and by those who were inspired choosing to pass on the knowledge and inspiration they are catalysts and so on and so on and we all can be a part of this current of love… receiving and giving and receiving and giving! it’s fucking beautiful!!!!! made my day!……then as i was eating some brazilian pineapple that the rock band (that’s recording in Dre’s studio) left over here, i was missing my brazilian man… and he called me and we had a conversation that rocked my world… he was dropping spiritual knowledge/understanding/compassion on me gandhi style, opening up in ways that shocked me… a layer was peeled.. and it showed me the infinite possibilities and perspectives in love relationships… and i wonder what brought this energetic shift and powerful realization, what was making him hold me in this higher reverence? i guess sometimes people have to be away from you to truly appreciate you and understand you in profound ways…i mean how many people truly understand us?  or was he feeling my experiences and thoughts and feelings here and somehow tapped into that energetically? fascinating! i couldn’t get off the phone with him (though i was running late in cooking dinner and my beans did suffer- they have to sit for at least an hour for ultimate sabor)…i’m excited to keep growing and learning in love! i feel like i’m meant to teach others of love though i may not get to everyone in this lifetime. and speaking of love… though we did speak of our INCREDIBLE accomplishments of our group and our focus for 2010…we got on the subject of sex…. as should be expected with these sexy goddesses!  i love how candid some of the group is… i mean nothing is off-limits and i adore it… the questions came up – if a man is more endowed is he typically less talented or motivated with going down on a woman? (cause he feels he doesn’t have to work to please a woman)… and does size really matter?… also, isn’t a man who is uncircumcised more sensitive in feeling? … the answers were great! i wish we had video taped this conversation… real sex would’ve blushed… what a bizarre magnificent day… full of currents of love, break throughs, good food, deep conversation… i love life! we all have had those moments in life where we feel like hell but we truly create our lives… i’m living proof of that… i’ve developed consciously the beauty that is my life. now i must rest. i have a hula hooping video audition tomorrow! so random! i love life! wishing you the ultimate creation of beauty in your life!!!!

(untouched) photo by megan finley, styled by michele chantel, makeup/hair by tawney bevacqua, art by julia rauda

Be yourself and liberate the world

i received the message… no more holding back world… i’m going full force… i thought that i was already was in full effect… but alas the signs are telling me otherwise… that i’m STILL holding back from being the fullest expression of myself….of course we are always evolving… but i mean being BOLD musically .. today i had a voice lesson with dannielle gaha that made me elated… she is an absolute musical goddess. flawless. soulful. filled with love. and this vocal angel told me that i have so much voice i’m not using… and though i’ve felt this way before.. hearing this from a woman i admire so much struck a chord with me… i have so much to give! and i need to give it! fully. completely. 

today when talking with one of the guys from the band, bryan, i started sharing with him a story of the 1st time i wrote a song and played it for my dad ….my friend cyrous who i met in govenor’s school played guitar and we started writing this song together…after i was finished singing my first song to my dad, i asked my father what he thought and he said “what do you want me to say dree, i’ve heard 1000s of songs”…  not that my father had to say “you are such an incredible singer. i love your song” but maybe he could’ve said… “that’s a great start to writing songs.”…it was just that his tone was so condescending, demeaning even…. it scarred me in such a way that i didn’t complete another song for 9 years (until i met dre)… i got so emotional sharing this story, tears began to fall down my face and i realized it’s STILL effecting me… my father’s words… bryan tried to reassure me, saying because of what i’ve been through with my dad that i’m at a whole other level where people just can’t even fuck with me, that i’m strong now…and i am strong.. but i thought today.. wow- i really let that hold me back…. i’ve known this already but revisiting this memory and finding such emotion… made me realize i still am holding myself back… that i have room to grow in the fullest expression of my creativity… that i don’t have to withhold all this creativity for fear of not being good enough…and maybe this withholding is why sometimes i feel like i’m going to burst if i don’t sing or i feel like i can’t breathe if i can’t create…

the universe is telling me through those around me that i am more powerful than i thought and i need to be BOLD…bold in who i am…bold in my music and in my voice… so i’m vowing to fully “break the funk out this box” i put myself in… and be completely BOLD in my self-expression.. 

“Pebble to a Pearl” by Nikka Costa

Baby girl too shy to shine
Let everybody else take the light
Didn’t want to burn too bright
So she kept it all inside

Little girl go beat your drum
Go and see what all you can become
Playin’ small don’t serve no one
Face your fears and you will overcome

‘Cause the tears that we been cryin’
Been workin’ overtime

It’s about time that we got our joyful
That we got our joyful on

Don’t be afraid to live out loud
Never squash who you are be proud
You’re a universal sound
Whatcha gotta say, say it loud

Baby don’t ya act demure
So nobody else feels insecure
Be yourself and liberate the world
Don’t ya be a pebble be a pearl

fearless manifestation!!!!

i am enamored with the concept of manifestation. making our dreams a reality. after listening to a program on oprah and friends on xm radio, i really became fascinated with the power of collective intention and had the idea to start a manifestation group… my friend jill had the same idea the same day- talk about alignment or coincidence (aren’t coincidences God’s way of staying anonymous???)… we started the group with 2 of our soul sisters shar and aneesah. what’s incredible about these ladies is that they are all extremely intelligent, spiritual, loving, uniquely and divinely talented. we had to find our rhythm as a group… we first met every other week, then every 3 weeks, sometimes we could only make the time for once a month… but we would make the time… we learned to be communicative, open, sharing, and committed to helping each other manifest in all areas of our lives… career, relationships, spirit, and abundance… a typical meeting consists of  updating each other on what’s going on in our lives, sharing our goals and main focus, and then giving each other support or ideas to achieve our intentions… we would also share what we would do to take action to reach our goals before the next meeting… and we hold each other accountable… not in a judgemental way… but a loving encouraging way… and sometimes if you can’t muster the energy to do it for yourself you can get motivated to do it for others…some weeks we’d come in thinking we had done absolutely nothing then after talking with each other found the value in the action we did take…  it is divine connecting with other women in such a deep way… and beyond just the concept of sharing ideas and supporting each other… there is something energetically powerful that happens when you put people together in this way… it’s uplifting in a way that is beyond comprehension… 

i encourage you to start your own manifestation group or womanifestation group! make it up as you go along…find what works for you… maybe it’s more career focused or spirit focused or maybe it’s all of the above… maybe you have a yearly retreat with the girls… meet in different places (homes, restaurants, the beach, events, etc.), maybe read a book collectively and  get deep with it…sign up for a seminar together.. see what feels right for you…. i really love helping others reach for their dreams… i really believe in infinite possibilities and that we are LIMITLESS… sometimes we just get in our own way… i really believe that miracles can happen everyday… 

i had my spiritual guru dr. wolf share with our group about manifestation… here’s some of the notes from the meeting…

-USE WHAT YOU LOVE TO ACHIEVE A HIGH VIBRATION/FREQUENCY IN ORDER TO MANIFEST!!!! I love this! So when you are dancing, acting, writing, singing, playing, making love, enjoying your shower, whatever it is that brings you joy…etc. also focus some energy/thoughts/good feelings on what it is you want to manifest!!!! Makes so much sense! Every moment (while doing what you love) you can add more purpose and meaning towards other things you want to manifest in your life. 

CREATION and REST CYCLES-remember that you are always fluctuating in periods of creation and periods of rest so honor these cycles. Take the time to appreciate what you have created. The rest is necessary for the creation…. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Also, remember you are timeless! So you have no limitations except the ones you put on yourself.

-BEING TRUE TO YOUR EMOTIONS-embrace when you are feeling down. Being true to your emotions helps you through anything you may be struggling with. 

-”Measure 10x (preparation phase) and cut once” – so when you’re ready to manifest then you’re fully prepared. Don’t rush it.

-We are energy 1st, so form is patterned by the energy (word/actions must all have purpose)… be aware of your words/thoughts/actions.

-TRUST- not just believe-TRUST in the unknowing, TRUST your decision to come here (to this planet, to this state, to this city), TRUST your power, TRUST your ability to manifest!!!!!!!!! When we lose our trust we lose our connection to all that is… 

-ONLY THOSE TRUE TO THEIR SELVES AND PURPOSE CAN MANIFEST SOMETHING THAT WILL CHANGE THE WORLD!!!! (and don’t we all want to change the world for the better!!)

i wish you FEARLESS MANIFESTATION of everything your heart desires.

my LAFS ladies…i love and believe in you so much!

Jill Brown- Life Coach focused on helping women achieve balance and purpose. An INSPIRATIONAL FORCE!!!!! http://www.theduchessguide.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sharmila Rose- inspirational, breath takingly beautiful, conscious, makes you feel deep actress extraordinaire! A TRUE talent with a message. Website and reel coming soon!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aneesah Williams- Co-founder of LionessLA a marketing and production firm with an emphasis on exclusive nightlife experiences and special events. LionessLA innovates the forefront of global nightlife & social philanthropy….Aneesah is also a phenomenal singer-songwriter… Check her out! 

http://www.lionessla.com/ AND http://www.imeem.com/aneesahw (for the beautiful vocal stylings)

empowerment through our sexuality

yes our sexuality is POWERFUL!!!! …powerful in our connection with others- as a performer on stage as well as in our daily (and nightly) interactions with others…  i think it’s amazing when women and men are authentic in their sexuality and how they express it…but there’s a thin line between what’s for show (don’t try so hard/don’t give it all away!) and what is genuine/natural/effortless (you just being you).  and it’s sad to me when a woman feels that it is her ONLY option in gaining love, admiration, affection, and empowerment is through her sex. in fact sometimes our sexuality can distract from our other talents and true intellect. i’m making it one of my missions (one of many) to help women (especially young girls) to appreciate/honor/cherish/embrace their femininity and sexuality but not use it as a primary source of empowerment… 

“i’ve been empowered by my sexuality and found it fleeting and false… i want to be known for my word…my intellect…my thoughts…and ideas—dancing in my mind, like fireflies, pure electricity… because that is eternal…” – from my journal on June 9, 2006…