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Transformation 

I get so much JOY from walking down Sunset Boulevard to the farmers market to get my fridge sexy. Late Saturday morning. Sunshine on my skin. Headphones on. I can’t help and walk hand-in-hand with my MUSIC. We’re so in LOVE. Not one not two but three butterflies danced around me. Transformation. Fear is only created in my mind. I don’t care what they say, people in LA will smile and say hello if you allow it. Connection. Dream and plan. NEXT LEVEL. Every day steps. Four butterflies! Perspective is everything. How do you flip the script to be the truth? Exude it in your conversations, interactions, essence, energy, and your song. The tones I sang resonated richly, delicious round and SENSUOUS in my mouth. Take a bite out of the sonic happiness. I just want to elevate you to that world where all is right and even if it’s not right, you have faith it will be. It’s not escape, it’s exultation. Five butterflies! Heaven and hell, what we create here on Earth within us. How do you define love? I don’t know but I know I fucking love him. Yoga in nature. Discussion with a goddess. She breaks down the concept of atonement. At-one-ment. We’re all one. Separation an illusion. What we do to others we did ourselves. Let’s forgive ourselves. You think that it’s someone else. It’s really you. Where you not giving love to the situation? All blame is a waste of time. Letting go. Freedom. Acceptance. I declare publicly I will now only learn lessons with ease and grace. New beginnings. I was broken and rebuild myself with the bricks of light. Solid, weightless, luminous.

 

an obsession with shoes, half a cup of coffee, and a gunny sack

Today was my grandmother Ila’s birthday. (Pronounced EYE-LA). I didn’t know her that well as she passed when I was only 8 years old. Ila was my grandmother on my dad’s side. Her father had two families and because he gave his earnings to his other family, my grandmother had to stay home from school to pick cotton to help her family out with money. I remember how my grandmother bitterly recalled how she had no shoes which later accounted for her obsession with them. Years later she worked at a shoe store and had closets full.

Ila was the epitome of a Southern woman. She cooked using an entire stick of butter when cooking a small pot of creamed corn. Even at the age of 5, I could eat an entire plate. I remember her blackberry bush and how she would make the BEST blackberry jam. She could sew anything- she created a beautiful pink lace (pink was her favorite color) Arabian princess Halloween costume that I loved so much I wore it 3 years in a row, until I out grew it.  She was intelligent and though her brilliance never was fully utilized she did make sure to at least get her high school equivalency through the mail. Ila made me elaborate birthday cakes every year. She spoiled me as I was her first and only grandchild. She would allow me to have meals that little people should not have, like an entire bowl of cool whip. She would let me watch as much TV as I wanted, even shows like “Three’s Company!” She even gave me half a cup of coffee, in a novelty cup that really was “half a cup” with one side of the mug flat. She taught me to paint at the tender age of 5. My first masterpiece was a watermelon. She would sing with me and teach me little songs, country songs… I remember one said something about a “bushel and a peck and a hug around the neck.”

I remember being in elementary school and learning about Martin Luther King Jr. and asking her about him enthusiastically. I thought what an exciting time that must have been in history to have such a magnificent leader. She narrowed her eyes and said nothing. There’s a racism embedded in many Southerners that they don’t even know is there. If she had lived longer, I wonder how she would’ve handled me having black boyfriends? She did love my Puerto Rican mother though, she said mama was so pretty that she’d look good in a “gunny sack.” I still don’t know what a gunny sack is…

Like all the ladies in my life- she didn’t play. She was STRONG. solid. I only wish I could’ve know her longer. After she passed there were no real holiday gatherings. She was the glue that held everyone together. It would’ve been interesting to see how she would’ve influenced me, how I would’ve influenced her? and how she would’ve influenced the whole family. Would my dad still talk to me? Maybe he would be different? He was just a few years older than me when he “lost” her. I sure he must have felt robbed of time.

I’ve heard stories of how protective she was of her 3 sons. How when the neighbors threatened my dad and his brothers, she stood up to them fiercely. I heard she didn’t like to leave the house much, my mother said perhaps because of depression. I heard that she adored me. That she had always wanted a daughter and with three boys she was overjoyed when the first grandbaby was born a girl. 🙂

When we grow up without someone unfortunately, we can only rely on the depictions of the loved one by other family members, their stories, their skewed perceptions, their colored and hazy memories.

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The Soft Glow of Electric Sex Update

So excited to share my new EP “The Soft Glow of Electric Sex” with you! Sonically we are capturing the multifacetedness of human sexuality- the light of divine connection to the dark raw primal union. I think you’re going to love it! All the musicians are bringing their A game! I could not be happier. It’s captivating!

Here are some photos from some of the sessions with Andre De Santanna (producer/bassist…..), Leo Costa (arranger/drummer/percussionist), Bryan Velasco (keys…), Alberto Lopez (percussionist), Matthew Haze (guitar), Grecco Buratto (guitar), DJ Christian Gamez, and Daniel K. Mandelman aka Magala Papa (keys…)! Thank you to Lynne Earls for her photography contributions. Strings and horns to come!

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2011 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The concert hall at the Syndey Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 15,000 times in 2011. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 6 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

Click here to see the complete report.

parallel universe

lately i’ve been obsessed with the idea of parallel universes. i started watching every video i could on the subject on youtube. i bought Fred Alan Wolf’s book Parallel Universes: The Search for Other Worlds – which is fascinating! (check it out! i’m so excited! i can’t! stop! using! exclamation points!) and i even started writing a song (that may go on the new record) about lovers that aren’t together in this world but are united in a parallel universe. here are some of the lyrics…

parallel universe / where u and i exist / intergalactic / sex / magic / bliss

we can’t be denied / stepped onto the other side / can’t turn back now / gotta know what this world is

just because it’s not reality / doesn’t mean that it’s not real / i’ve touched you in a thousand dreams / i know your depth / i know your feel…

                                                                                                                                                 

more to come…

bisous,

bella

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Check out my feature from The Rising Hollywood: It’s Time For A Sexual Revolution with Andree Belle

By Nicole Breanne

Andree Belle walked into the bar where I was meeting her and immediately brightened up the room. There is a warmth, and an almost physical presence about her. Once she sat down and we began to speak it was clear what I was feeling, I was feeling connected. A singer and song writer, newly certified yoga instructor, but that’s not all,  Andree is also on a mission. With her new album “The Soft Glow of Electric Sex” she hopes to start a sexual revolution. It’s important to her to feel that women are empowered and are valued, that we’re more than our bodies or our looks. She’s working extremely hard on her new album in the hope that it will bring a platform to inspire young girls, and of course…get people moving!

NB: Tell me about The Soft Glow of Electric Sex”

AB: This EP is an exploration of our sexuality. The name of the album comes from the movie, A Christmas Story.  When Ralphie’s father wins the infamous leg lamp, he is captivated by “the soft glow of electric sex”…. it’s funny to me because it can be perceived as being so sexual, but it’s silly at the same time because it’s from a classic holiday film, it touches on the multifacetedness of our sexuality.

Though we can be empowered by our sexuality, we are so much more than that. One of my missions is to help women embrace authentic expression of their sexuality and be empowered by it but also find empowerment from their spirits and minds.

NB: How is this EP different that your first album?

AB: I’ve grown as an artist, writer, performer and I believe this project will reflect that.

NB: How much does your heritage come into play…would you every “tone down” your Latin vibes?

AB: NUNCA! I’m proud to be Boricua, it’s a part of who I am. My Puerto Rican heritage comes across in the way I move on stage, I dance a lot. In my first project, M.U.S.I.C. we had two Latin tunes, “abuela” and “te necesito” and a little interlude that Dre and Leo did called, “rabo de galo.” Also, there’s one Latin song on the next record called “beijo,” it’s a little interlude I wrote about my love. He’s from Brazil and beijo means kiss in Portuguese.

NB: What’s your creative process? Do you like writing with people? What inspires you?

AB: I don’t like to box myself in. I like creating in every way, by myself, with other people…. on the spot creation, sometimes the concept is first, sometimes a melody, sometimes a poem turns into a song…  My life is what inspires me. There’s a song that I wrote called Sexploitation, and it explores me paying my way through college by working at a burlesque club. I learned a lot there. It was a very dark world and its been very cathartic for me to write this song… it can be a  bit scary too, to be that vulnerable. But I feel like you have to be that vulnerable for people to really feel it and understand you as an artist.

NB: You talk a lot about sexuality, and a sexual revolution. But you’re not promoting promiscuity…so what are your feelings on monogamy?

AB: I think whatever is true to you. To each their own. It’s all about honesty. If you can handle an open relationship then great, do you…. I will have a song called “Serial Monogamist” as well on the next record, because that has been my relationship pattern.

NB: How important is it to you that this project do well?

AB: I really want to do it big! I want to go on tour and reach the masses. I’m fearless! I’m very determined for it to succeed.  It’s everything. I live for connecting with others through music. Every time I’m on stage I think “this is gift,” I’m so grateful. The more success you have the more you’re in a position to talk about bigger things. What is the purpose of fame unless its to influence in a positive way?

NB: Who are your idols?

AB: I love all the old school soul artists, Aretha, Stevie, Marvin,  and jazz singers, Billie and Ella… but new artists who inspire me…The Black Keys, they’re really dope. Janelle Monet is electric on stage, she’s very inspiring and very conceptual. I love Little Dragon, V.V. Brown is super creative and she’s about the message too. She’s a real, true artist and I think that’s needed and important in pop music. I just had the pleasure to sing backgrounds for her promo tour. I love Erykah Badu. An authentic artist whose career I would like to emulate. I’d love to open for her.

NB: Any plans for acting or fashion??

AB: I am a bit fashion obsessed. I would love to have my own lingerie line.  I’m intrigued by acting, I love the psychology behind it, there are a lot of similarities to music. I’m open to exploring that world.

NB: You’ve written about how you didn’t have the easiest of childhoods, you’re parents relationship wasn’t ideal. Has that inspired you?

AB: Growing up I didn’t really see a loving communicative relationship. I grew up in an abusive environment, a lot of turmoil. My Mom is very close to me and is extremely loving and supportive. I have shared a lot of my childhood experiences on my blog and how I dealt with those experiences. Readers would message me and it was beautiful to see how it touched people and inspired them. I saw a lot of things I shouldn’t have, but I think that’s what makes you who you are and it makes you stronger.

NB: You mentioned “your love” tell me a bit about him.

AB: He’s my musical soul mate. Dre (yes we have the same name) is a genius. He does everything- plays, writes, produces, mixes. He’s an inspiration to me for sure. He teaches me so much even the way I listen to music is different now because of him. I love creating with him. I call him the co-writer to my dreams.

NB: How important is it that people feel connected to you through your album, or feel the love you’ve put into it?

AB: It’s very important but I feel like it’s easier to convey through my live performances.

NB: What’s your main goal with this album?

AB: My goal is to spark a sexual revolution where we are embracing our sexuality in a healthy and multifaceted way. Mind, body, and spirit. American culture is so funny, we’re either repressed or we’re at the opposite end of the spectrum where we are obsessed with sex. I think the repression has led to this obsession with it.  Thinking about it historically, women were the leaders and now we’re repressed. I think its great to be empowered by sexuality but I feel like there’s so much more to us that we need to talk about.  I think it’s great to grind it out, but what else is there? You look at Madonna and she was very provocative. She inspires me. Now there are artists that are so called empowered by their sexuality but if feels false to me… in the videos they’re straddling some kind of phallic object. Some girls think that’s all they are (their sexuality). What do you do when you’re 65 and have only been empowered by your looks and sex your whole life? You’re so much more than that.

NB: Pop music is so auto-tuned, you’re not doing any of that on this album, why not?

AB: It’s the imperfections that are beautiful and I’m all about celebrating our imperfections as women. I think it’s a travesty that everyone is so auto-tuned and sounds the same. I’m about authentic self-expression. Mainstream music is homogeneous right now, we need a revolution. I hope to be a part of that revolution.

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fresh perspective through the words of a stranger: my father

my mother just gave me a very interesting gift. it’s a treasure actually… my father’s journal from when he was 19… ironic considering the last blog i wrote touched on the subject of the importance of journaling and how it can be such a great tool for self reflection. it’s fascinating to me, exploring the mind of a man that i don’t really feel i know that well, my father. granted this is just a snippet of who he is… but it gave me more compassion for him… though i don’t know him that well i do have respect for his privacy so i won’t divulge everything- just show what i learned about him through reading the journal…many entries depict that the world was against him (sadness, disappointment, frustration, angst)… some entries seem perhaps spiritual (though he seemed very agnostic when i was growing up)…he even had a page where he wrote down positive and negative comments about his guitar playing (maybe to help inspire him? or give him perspective?)… there are lyrics in the book too- one that refers to “the green God of power” (aka money) -interesting to see that his relationship with money changed so much over the years… he went from condemnation to it being his primary focus… beyond family and beyond his own dreams of music…his ambition for what he thought was “success” at the time was great, it seemed to consume him… he wanted more in his life… there are beautiful rays of hope as well… in consideration to the nay-sayers or to the haters (as we call them today).. he wrote “you must pay them no heed. they know not themselves! they know not you! they know not! continue to work, push, strive, and at long last if you succeed in your wishes, you shall know it was worth it, if you should fail be not bitter… for you have a very keen sight while they are almost blind to the truth of the world.” my dad never said things like that to me.. lol. it’s refreshing to read the words of this stranger. in regards to my dream of singing he said, “maybe you’ll make it, you seem more hell bent on it than i did.” very different than the young man in the notebook… i wonder if that man is still inside of him? i wonder if he still feels that way and just doesn’t articulate it?… he talked of this eternal struggle.. of wanting to leave his mark on the world, of helping others… yet he became consumed by something that is unknown to me…something that made him become isolated from not only my life but from the world.

though there were some dark moments from my childhood and adult life with him (see poem for papa) https://andreebelle.wordpress.com/2009/06/01/papa/ or (be yourself and liberate the world) https://andreebelle.wordpress.com/2009/07/17/be-yourself-and-liberate-the-world/ … there are great things about him as well… he is brilliant (a genius inventor, he’s had over 20 patents), he’s super hard working, a self made man (first one to go to college in his family and become a prominent business man), he can be witty and charming, he’s a gifted musician, disciplined (he used to practice 8 hours a day on the guitar)… he taught me how to tell time, ride my bike, ski, and load shot gun shells (don’t ask)… and probably passed on some of his rebellious nature to me as well (i consider that a positive too 🙂 )… i’m sending him love… i’m happy that my mother saved the notebook… it’s giving me a fresh perspective… though he still remains a mystery to me… well, we are mysteries to ourselves in many ways… it has impacted me in a precious way- seeing his vulnerability. i don’t know if my father will ever be in my life again. but i feel it’s important for me to see him in various lights… human beings are deep and complex… and this is part of my journey in this lifetime- having this experience with him… and i’m grateful for it’s part of why i am who i am today.

Bella age 5

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